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Name: Ryan
Gender: Male
Interests: Skateboarding, Watching PJ Ladds WHL until the sun goes down/comes up. I also am very interested in NINJAS cause they're so totally awesome, dont forget playing rock paper scissors and screaming really loud like jeff cheung
Expertise: HAVING A XANGA CUZ IM AZN
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
AIM:  rtk9r2
Member Since:
7/10/2004
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| http://www.lehigh.edu/%7Epms6/london%20symphony%20orchestra%20-%20super%20mario%20brothers%20theme.mp3 | | |
| It finally happened...sorry zoey
http://rtk9r2.blogspot.com/
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| I'M SO EMO!
I'm thinking about getting a blogspot or whatever, xanga just isn't doing it for me. What is your take on this matter?
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| For once, I actually feel like...depressed. I was laying down waiting for stuart to come back so I could finish making our hella tight movie, and I started thinking about coke girl and just like everything, when I kinda realized that I really think i'm wasting my time with this. I know I've gone through this so many times, going from hating her to just like going out of my way just to see her, and really I dont know if this time is any diffrent. I just remember that day that I asked her out and she was all like "maybe, but we should hang out more blah blah I'm coke girl" and I was telling Scott and he told me if it was anything but yes then its a no. I thought I was an exception until now, so she said we should hang out more, uh huh. I'm not so sure but I think it was after that that she became "busy" for the rest of the year. I don't know what made her change her mind to start all of a sudden hang out with me again, but I really think in this there is no win, i'm just fighting an uphill battle here and just when it seems like i'm actually getting somewhere, I start to question it all and end up right back where I started from because I tried to get over her(avoid her)for a few weeks. At least now I dont have her in my chemistry class, so I dont have to see her every few days if I dont want to. As much as I want to say I'm done with it, until I find someone to replace her with that can withstand the test of fro yo and indian food it looks like I'm stuck with her.
It does seem like when I do finally get my mind off her I actually do get somewhere and get a girlfriend, even if it may be for a week or so. As sad as it is, thats usually the best I seem to get, but it really is better than what coke girl has to offer. I'm obviously just a LITTLE bit like touchy feely, but you know like who doesn't like hugs and such? With coke girl its just like hugging a wall, a cold cold dark wall that doesn't really care. I am overexadgerating a little bit (ok a lot), but at this point thats what it feels like. I am so emo, but I think thats ok. | | |
| Oh man, so there I am talking about whatever and my frickin firefox FREEZES! I've had enough of that crap, or so I thought. I was like I'm switching to safari RIGHT NOW! TAKE THAT FIREFOX! But then firefox was like yeah ryan you'll be back, I got into safari press apple T to open up a new tab and nothing happened. This saddens me. I did get a chance to take a screen shot of what I had said but I'll say what I said before that to give it some like stuff....
Basically I was talking about how I went out and played hide n go seek with my sister and step brothers and I found an awesome spot but it was out of bounds like the first spot I picked.
Yeah bleh I could ask Coke Girl to go to homecoming with me, but like honestly, I never dance. Because I dunno I'm embarrassed and then I get scared someone is going to point and laugh at me, so if I were to go I would feel super obligated to dance at this dance (scary I know) I have pretty stupid reasons for not asking her, such as that and the obvious fear or rejection like allie just being like ew EW EW EWWWWW WHAT WERE YOU THINKING? GET AWAY FROM ME! AHHH I NEED TO WASH MYSELF...SO...SO...DIRTY EW!!!
yeah, i'm pretty cool this is understood.........skdf...ksdjalselwaenmfma,d
I'm getting pretty tired though, if I do ask her I think maybe I'll do it sometime next week | | |
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